Flying or not? / Leteti ali ne?

That is a question...
To je vprašanje... 

Do you know the feeling when your dreams and wishes are soooo big that they lift you up from the ground and make you want to (just) fly? But you're afraid to do that, because you're not sure if you're ready to leave the nest. You're afraid you will fall down flat the moment you jump. You're afraid if you're old enough. You're not sure what kind of enemies are waiting for you out there. 
Poznate občutek, ko vaše sanje in želje postanejo takoooo velike, da vas dvignejo od tal in vzbudijo željo po letenju? Toda strah vas je, ker niste prepričani, če ste že pripravljeni zapustiti gnezdo. Bojite se, da boste plosko padli na tla, takoj ko bi skočili. Bojite se, če ste že dovolj zreli. Niste prepričani, kakšni sovražniki čakajo na vas tam zunaj. 

Yes, these are the days for me lately. Haven't jumped yet. Those big ideas are scary. They are so big that I think they're going to squash me. So, I'm being cautious. Trying to check the ground, have my eyes and ears open, trying to keep my inner Self calm and inspired.
Ja, takšni so moji dnevi zadnje čase. Nisem še skočila. Te velike ideje so strašljive. Tako velike so, da imam občutek, da me bodo poteptale pod sabo! Zato sem previdna. Poskušam preveriti trdnost tal, odpiram oči in ušesa, poskušam ohraniti moj notranji Jaz umirjen in pod vplivi navdihov.  

It's hard. There are many distractions out there that keep me away from focusing. It's hard to carry most of the burden yourself. It's hard. It's hard to let it go and fly... 
Težko je. Veliko je motenj, ki me zmotijo pri fokusiranju. Težko je nositi pretežni del bremena sam. Težko je. Težko je prepustiti se in poleteti...  

(from my old album / iz mojega starega albuma) 

I spent some days with mySelf. I guess you've noticed, eh? Sometimes I just need to listen to the silence and talk with a brush and paint. Deep inside I was getting ready to say goodbye, say goodbye to the old and prepare myself for a new journey. I didn't start travelling yet, I'm still in the packing phase. I have to be careful to not take too many bags with me if I want to fly. I don't want to fall. 
Nekaj dni sem preživela sama s Sabo. Verjetno ste opazili... Včasih moramo prisluhniti tišini in se pogovarjati s čopiči in barvo. Globoko v sebi sem se pripravljala na slovo, na slovo od nečesa starega ter se pripravljala na novo potovanje. Nisem še odpotovala. Pripravljam prtljago. Ne sme biti pretežka, če želim poleteti. Nočem pasti.

There are still some flying instructions waiting for me in the next weeks. I'll work hard to learn. So, if you won't hear from me here from time to time, you will know I'm practicing and exercising for the perfect jump!
V naslednjih tednih me čaka še nekaj navodil za letenje. Trdo bom delala, da jih osvojim. Zato, če dlje časa ne boste na blogu videli objav, vedite, da vadim in treniram 'popolni skok'!

Enjoy, whatever you're working on, too!
Uživajte, kar koli že počnete!

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PS: As some of you may have heard, Google will not allow 'Friend Connect' on no-google-blogs anymore. Well, when I moved my Slovene and English blog here, I 'lost' many followers (over 100), so I don't really have much to say about this. I'm just tired of things like that. Too many times I asked people to follow my blog this way or that way... I won't give rewards to get you to sign to my blog. You will just make me happy. If I'm happy, then I spread my happiness around... (Read more about this in one of my previous posts here). So, if you want, you can now sign in and follow me via Networked Blogs or Linky Followers (see the sidebar), but I will have to remove Google Friends this week. Thanks and thank you for your understanding.
PS: Kot ste nekateri verjetno že slišali, Google ne bo več dovolil uporabo Friend Connect-a na ne-googlovih-blogih. No, ko sem sem preselila slovenski in angleški blog, sem 'izgubila' kar nekaj spremljevalcev (preko sto), zato o tem nimam kaj dosti za povedat. Utrujena sem že od takih stvari. Prevečkrat sem že prosila ljudi, naj spremljajo moj blog na ta ali oni način... Ne bom delila nagrad tistim, ki se bodo vpisali na moj blog. Preprosto, vesela bom, če se boste vpisali. In kadar sem vesela, potem delim to veselje naprej... (Več o tem ste lahko prebrali v eni od objav tu). Zato, če želite, se vpišite in mi sledite preko Networked Blogs ali Linky Followers (najdete ju v stranskem stolpcu), Google Friends pa bom v tem tednu morala odstraniti. Najlepša hvala in hvala za razumevanje.