Flying or not?

That is a question...

Do you know the feeling when your dreams and wishes are soooo big that they lift you up from the ground and make you want to (just) fly? But you're afraid to do that, because you're not sure if you're ready to leave the nest. You're afraid you will fall down flat the moment you jump. You're afraid if you're old enough. You're not sure what kind of enemies are waiting for you out there. 

Yes, these are the days for me lately. Haven't jumped yet. Those big ideas are scary. They are so big that I think they're going to squash me. So, I'm being cautious. Trying to check the ground, have my eyes and ears open, trying to keep my inner Self calm and inspired.

It's hard. There are many distractions out there that keep me away from focusing. It's hard to carry most of the burden yourself. It's hard. It's hard to let it go and fly... 

(from my old album)

I spent some days with mySelf. I guess you've noticed, eh? Sometimes I just need to listen to the silence and talk with a brush and paint. Deep inside I was getting ready to say goodbye, say goodbye to the old and prepare myself for a new journey. I didn't start travelling yet, I'm still in the packing phase. I have to be careful to not take too many bags with me if I want to fly. I don't want to fall. 

There are still some flying instructions waiting for me in the next weeks. I'll work hard to learn. So, if you won't hear from me here from time to time, you will know I'm practicing and exercising for the perfect jump!

Enjoy, whatever you're working on, too!

PS: As some of you may have heard, Google will not allow 'Friend Connect' on no-google-blogs anymore. Well, when I moved my Slovene and English blog here, I 'lost' many followers (over 100), so I don't really have much to say about this. I'm just tired of things like that. Too many times I asked people to follow my blog this way or that way... I won't give rewards to get you to sign to my blog. You will just make me happy. If I'm happy, then I spread my happiness around... (Read more about this in one of my previous posts here). So, if you want, you can now sign in and follow me via Networked Blogs or Linky Followers (see the sidebar), but I will have to remove Google Friends this week. Thanks and thank you for your understanding.

Posted on February 27, 2012 and filed under Do What You Love, about me, creative process, misc, thoughts.